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also kymm sorry just got your message. i cant remember how to delete people but ill try. where are you now?
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[10 Jul 2006|04:42pm] |
theres this guy at headingly stadium who everyone thinks is a complete loser. well i thought i'll be nice to him at work on wednesday. and talk to him about his sisters whilst everyone else was talking about not the most boring subject in the entire world..........
and he got me sacked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wanker fucking incompetant fucking cunt bastard.
the supervisors at headingley are a complete fucking joke. i could do that job and not get sacked but i can get sacked because of their complete incompetance.
i now have no money to live on for the next two months. i loved working at headingley. part of the reason i agreed to live somewhere that was an hours walk to headingley was that i would be round the corner from work.
now there's no chance i'm going to get my job back. if i'm going down then he is coming down with me because God damn I wrote in my diary "stick up for yourself. at least once" as one of my aims in life and i'm going to start now.
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[28 Jun 2006|02:55pm] |
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sometimes just wanna go.............AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH FUCKS SAKE fucking HELL!!!! AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| friday 5 - what makes you feel good? |
[24 Jun 2006|08:31am] |
1. What is the one outfit/piece of clothing/accessory you own that makes you feel incredibly good whenever you wear it? Why?
2. What do you do to make yourself feel better when you're in a funk?
3. Has anyone ever surprised you in a way that let you know you were special? How?
4. When you are having a "good day," how do you spread the happiness to others?
5. What is one thing that puts you in a bad mood, no matter how good you were previously feeling?
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[23 Jun 2006|02:09am] |
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being in london has been weird. i found out that one of my mates knew fionnualla aswell and he told me that the reason she took the pill in the first place was because she wanted to stop her boyfriend from taking it and he said the only way he'd take less was if she shared it with him.
what an absolute cunt. she went with him to this party to take care of him and he basically killed her. a few days ago i was riding up the hill towards the road where she lived which i go through to get to my house, and i thought i saw her, cause i just forgot at that time what had happened and i was thinking "oh my god i havent seen her for ages" and then i realised obviously that it wasnt her but i still rode really slowly past this girl who i thought was her so i could look at her face.
last night i went to the ULU were i went to see dcfc (years ago) in Warren Street with Emma, Jimsicle and Lewis (who I havent seen since I was 16) and we ended up in The Crow Bar in Leicester Square, and this guy offered me a pill and normally I am so fucking against them but I wanted to know what happened to her. and i took it and it didnt make me feel better or closer to her it made me puke and feel shit and now i am quite disgusted with myself. i think maybe i am done with drugs completely. this guy said hed come with me to the shops so i could get some fags, dragged me round london and then abandoned me because he was scared emma was going to beat him up for being such a knob. she had totally sussed him and i thought he was being nice.
today i went to rat and parrot with emma and we saw ginger Lee and this guy called Adam who I hadnt seen either of since I was 15. but Adam either didnt realise it was me, (somehow) or has become a massive knob and decided to blatently ignore me to my face. i dont really care anyway. as i said about williams when william arden died "it doesnt matter i know two more Adams anyway". i had a massive argument with my mum, according to her i'm this total shit whos trying to make everyone feel bad about themselves all the time. this isnt really a shock tho to be honest, its the same thing shes always said to me but i still hate it. i'm starting to think why should i always be doing stuff to try and make her happy - cooking, cleaning etc, when the others do fuck all and dont get treated with all this suspicioun that she apparently has of me. its a small complaint but im fed up of always being in the wrong. i feel guilty about so much shit. i hate people who are all like "o no in life everyone has beaten me down and i have done nothing wrong at all" but also i dont want to be like "oh my god im so sorry its totally my fault" about everything. i feel shit enough as it is.
amy contacted me and i dont want a fight you know? i dont know what to expect. from what it said on the profile from which she messaged me from she doesnt seem to have changed but how can i judge her from that
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| everything is cool |
[21 Jun 2006|01:22pm] |
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i'm so glad you're gone, you just led me on
where did it go wrong, too bad for too long
i live without you now
i'll get along some how
i don't care anyway, i just wanted to say
everything is cool
how are things with you
everything is cool
i wish you were dead
you say we'll be friends, that just means no sex,
i don't care what you say
i'm tired of fuckin' you anyway
i guess it is my fault
but do you blame you at all
i'll have to let you go
i just want you to know that
everything is cool
how are things with you, everything is cool,
i wish you were dead!
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[21 Jun 2006|01:20am] |
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what is it with people asking me to shag them tonight?
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[20 Jun 2006|03:44pm] |
Wednesday 5th
2pm - 10pm
Friday 7th
5pm - 10pm
Saturday 8th
11.30am - 10pm
Tuesday 11th
2pm - 10pm
22nd
3pm - 10pm
August 4th - 8th
8pm - 10pm
11th
10am - 5pm
Grads 19th, 20th and 21st of July
should get atleast £612 (accounting for about 12 hours worth of shortened shifts) even without the grads. if i get all the grads then i'll get over a thousand. but i wont get paid any til the 16th of August, and it's all in Leeds and I still have 2 weeks now and a month or so after.
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[20 Jun 2006|03:12pm] |
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kymm you unlivejournalled whilst i was replying to your post, do you want to meet up sometime this week or before next friday?
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[20 Jun 2006|02:18pm] |
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i've got all these expensive perfumes that must have cost about £100 in total, but everyone compliments me on the smell of ME!!!!!!!
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[17 Jun 2006|04:56pm] |
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do you know what tom can fuck right off
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| Friday Five |
[16 Jun 2006|12:34pm] |
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1. What’s the most embarrassing thing/job you’ve had to do to earn money?
2. What’s the easiest and quickest way you have earned a buck?
3. If you could set your own salary, according to your skills and worth, how much would you earn?
4. Are you a good saver?
5. What’s the most expensive and useless thing you have ever bought?
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| i remember when i lost my mind |
[15 Jun 2006|02:00pm] |
i'm not sure if we are a joke or if i am a joke to him. but it is all nonetheless a joke. i don't need this shit because it's never going to get anywhere. even when it's him asking me back he doesn't give a shit. he does not give a flying fuck. i was fairer to the minging 30 year old at work who for some reason thought i wanted to shag him than he is to me after 2 years. why should i be fucked anyway every relationship ive been in has done more harm than good. maybe i could just forsake all other men and go with joe whenever zeus come to town. ruth doesnt like it, and i know i should consider that but to be honest i dont see how it has anything to do with her.
also jenny made me get one of these lastfm things.
wherescobbett is my name
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my sister is like constantly fitting or sleeping (in the impossible to wake mode) at the moment. either way it is frightening and she is either really distressed or almost unconscious all the time. if anyone really rich is watching this can you buy her an epilepsy nurse and private healthcare?
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| id give you everything anything if you want things |
[09 Jun 2006|08:35pm] |
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What have I been doing this week? On Saturday my Mother suprised me with a bike!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then I went to Simon and Alexes new flat which I cant remember much about.
On Sunday Katie cut half my hair off. And I went to Adams barbeque, which was halfly the boys from the flat the night before and none of them noticed that the majority of my hair was missing!
Then the next day Katie put loads of blonde and purple in it and I went out with Andy and Lorry who also didn't notice the change in my appearance. We broke and entered, took illegal substances and committed arson in one night which is impressive
On Tuesday I went park with Adam and was pissing myself laughing for about an hour because of something about crabs or sandwiches.
Wednesday went to The Windmill to see Bretton and Chet. But missed Bretton and my wallet got stolen/ lost so not the best luck that night. Especcially since on the way back I kept accidently wiping my arm on that insect spit that you get on bushes on the way back from Lewisham.
Thursday my mate from college Stephen drove me into Woolwich to get an application form for a childrens gym thing, then we went to the Bankers Draft on Eltham highstreet and met this other guy from college called Jason, who I can but cant remember. Last year some guys beat him up with a pole and blinded him in one eye :O. I accidently text him to tell him I wasnt drunk and then he kept calling me and texting me all night. Andy and Lorry wanted to answer my phone but he was obviously either a stalker or wasted so I decided best not to. He hasnt called since about 4am so I think he was predominantly pissed. Went out with Lorry and Andy to the Gravel Pit and Lorry and Andy decided to drive whilst sitting out of the window. Which sounds confusing but is literally them sitting out of the front windows at the same time as driving. Which looks funny from the outside but is scary as hell.
This is such an uninteresting post but atleast I will remember my week. I've ridden into Lewisham today and got some money out and bought a new top
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| how do i forgive what you did |
[03 Jun 2006|07:01pm] |
Went to see William the band at The Windmill yesterday. The aloof singer from Chet wrote a letter to Adam asking him on a gay date!!! Went to Adams house afterwards and had some cake and watched the most amazing music video ever. its a cover of no good by plan b. then came home and watched the Big Brother eviction that I recorded and haahaha Sezer looked a total pillock. He was dressed like some kind of cartoon trucker. He is way too crap as a person but he is very attractive, it was hilarious when Richard mentioned that they had all been bullied and Sezers face froze. I think Big Brother will be lacking as a place of witnessing the fitness from now on with chinny chins Mikey and nostril wings Pete. Was so pissed off when instead of bringing in some kind of house hunk in with Ashleyne they decided to bring in shiny Sam, Shabbaz' love child from his relationship with a Darleck.
My Mum had a suprise for me this morning/afternoon when I woke up. She got me a bike!!!!!!! WOOOO. I have been trampolining aswell, hopefully will be very thin soon. Before I left Leeds Ruth instructed me to look through her Leeds photo albumn, and there was a picture of me and Tebbsy in December and I was really thin in my under 8 stone phase and I want to look like that again. I totally also want to kick Tom when hes down. I know thats totally unrelated but writing on my livejournal makes me think of him. I have to stop giving into the urge that I have to turn every entry into some kind of reflection on life though. I'm getting so paranoid lately that I can hardly even see my friends and I wish I had the power to make myself be well because this all makes me feel like a complete dickhead
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| wont it be strange when we're all fully grown |
[02 Jun 2006|04:17pm] |
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Last night went to the Rat and Parrot with Emma, felt so old, with the majority of people there being underaged. Got chatted up by some rowdy young ruffian who kept touching my head. Quintessential yoof flirting. Met the Lucy for the first time in about two or three year. she fancied the boy who was touching my head and kept checking it was okay for her to go with him which was quite sweet! It was rather like being inside Myspace, people are all starey faces and I'm pretty sure I walked in on someone talking about me. I'm sure they have too many pubs like this in St Albans and crap like that. Met the only two boys over the age of 12 in the club, one looked so much like Brian Blessed, and sounded like him. I dont even know who Brian Blessed is, but this guy was so him. The other guy was either pretending to be Irish or pretending not to be Irish. Afterwards Lorry came up to meet us and dropped Emma off then picked up Andy and Jay and we went to Lorrys to do buckets. I have never done a bucket prior to this! I was so fucked by the end of the night. Lorry and Andy wanted to go sit in Horn Park but I was wearing little going out clothes and Andy was puking so we went home.
Anyway hopefully going to see William tonight (band not a silly boy). Speaking of silly boys I so did not text that bastard. I was so angry with him on Monday and had to turn my music up to screaching point and listen to angry music, and then pointedly listen to Bush and try to calm down.
I ment to start this vitamin b, d and iron diet to try and sort out my head cheaply but i've left all my pills in Leeds. I want to try St Johns Wart but it's £26 for 100 pills :/ I got given money and shoes from family yesterday but I've spent it all on beer. I cant believe how fucked I was yesterday considering I only had 4 pints! Me and Emma tried to coerce the bouncers into letting us stay in there supping our beers but although they dont mind breaking the rules by allowing thousands of under fives in the pub they do mind letting me and Emma break the rules. so tres the not fair. It was cool to have some girls and then some boys last night. Ussually when I come home I dont see a girl the entire time. Emmas wicked cause we are still the same as we were at school and she is funny as hell. I am glad the Brian Blessed man didnt mind me going BRIAN BLESSSSSSSSED!!!!!!! at him recurrently.
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| i will let you know |
[27 May 2006|04:13pm] |
last night went to bondi for riches 21st and me and dan got into a fight with a group of girls in the taxi queue haha he told one of them to go join the darts team. rich tried to hug them all but they werent having it because they thought he was with me and then one of them kept going on about how by being in front of her we were keeping a pregnant woman from a taxi. a heavily pregnant woman who'd been clubbing until 3 in the morning. then when we got ack rich caled the police on this massive street party our neighbours were having and loads of people got arrested. aiden called me and i was on the phone to him for 3 hours. last night rich was being really *boo hoo im going home* and apologising for us not being friends this year but since then he has thrown me into his bike and taken away the speakers he gave me which is rather less friendly.
dan and ruth yelled at every guy who approached me in bondi. ive realised why it is i always meet people when i go out on my own with people who arent them
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tom is such a complete knob.i hate the fact that i am almost always watching my back. i also hate the fact that i let him back into my life when i knew this would happen and that i will have to get over him again. i hate the fact that everytime this happens its a little easier but it makes us a little less real. it makes a fool of me and the life i have been living for the last two years
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[24 May 2006|07:36pm] |
today i handed in my last assignment, got out a mitigation form, bought a new top and A Brief History of Time by Stephen Hawkins and then met some rannndom czech woman who asked me to go to the pub with her until her bus got into Leeds. so i did and i'm a bit pissed.
oh and this morning my Athlete CD arrived.
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